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  "title": "behind the eye",
  "summary": "Sepsis behind the dominant eye, just across a nebula, 32 light years away.",
  "content_text": "Sepsis behind the dominant eye,\n\njust across a nebula,\n\n32 light years away.\n\nA stretch to span the gulf,\n\nin a breath,\n\nthe pulsing lip,\n\na black hole\n\nfrom the missing tooth.\n\nPain with its hand\n\non the button.\n\nEver risk futures on tech,\n\nno hedge.\n\nEver feel infection,\n\nleft with no choices.\n\nMarch on the capital,\n\nmoney changers,\n\ncollectors,\n\ninfection still speaking.\n\nThe lawn guy from Jamaica\n\njust by,\n\nas I hunch over glass.\n\nAn old man in a Honda,\n\non a device,\n\ntap tap tappy.\n\nThe whole time:\n\nrobins,\n\nwrens,\n\nprop airplanes\n\noverhead,\n\nthe decel gargle\n\nof a semi\n\nout McGinnis Ferry.\n\n51 degrees.\n\nBirds.\n\nMy mouth is hurting,\n\na week after extraction,\n\nthe site\n\nstill in denial.\n\nMy ear itching too.\n\nThe cello up-ticks in the car,\n\nthe orphan,\n\nhendyyamps studios,\n\nAimee.\n\nTrying not to worry.\n\nArt is her reflection,\n\nlight strings,\n\ntrack titled:\n\nif I don’t see you again.\n\nThe neighbor still pretending\n\nto do important shit,\n\na chainsaw rattle\n\nin a serene glen,\n\nbattery-powered,\n\nstill loud enough.\n\nA sparrow\n\nsquirgle squawks.\n\nI contemplate\n\nmoving indoors,\n\nanother play,\n\nan undulating warble\n\nacross the yard.\n\nThe pain disappeared\n\nlong enough\n\nto notice,\n\nto mention,\n\nand of course\n\nthat spun up demons\n\njust to say it.\n\nWallowing\n\nin self-loathing,\n\nfear,\n\nNorth Georgia,\n\nBlue Ridge fever.\n\nHe wondering if it needs mowed,\n\njust now spring,\n\nthe grass\n\nwakes up slow.\n\nBreathe.\n\nCome on, body.\n\nYou got this.\n\nI just heal slow.",
  "content_markdown": "Sepsis behind the dominant eye,\njust across a nebula,\n32 light years away.\n\nA stretch to span the gulf,\nin a breath,\nthe pulsing lip,\na black hole\nfrom the missing tooth.\n\nPain with its hand\non the button.\n\nEver risk futures on tech,\nno hedge.\n\nEver feel infection,\nleft with no choices.\n\nMarch on the capital,\nmoney changers,\ncollectors,\n\ninfection still speaking.\n\nThe lawn guy from Jamaica\njust by,\n\nas I hunch over glass.\n\nAn old man in a Honda,\non a device,\ntap tap tappy.\n\nThe whole time:\nrobins,\nwrens,\nprop airplanes\n\noverhead,\n\nthe decel gargle\nof a semi\nout McGinnis Ferry.\n\n51 degrees.\nBirds.\n\nMy mouth is hurting,\na week after extraction,\n\nthe site\nstill in denial.\n\nMy ear itching too.\n\nThe cello up-ticks in the car,\nthe orphan,\n\nhendyyamps studios,\nAimee.\n\nTrying not to worry.\n\nArt is her reflection,\nlight strings,\n\ntrack titled:\nif I don’t see you again.\n\nThe neighbor still pretending\nto do important shit,\n\na chainsaw rattle\nin a serene glen,\nbattery-powered,\nstill loud enough.\n\nA sparrow\nsquirgle squawks.\n\nI contemplate\nmoving indoors,\n\nanother play,\nan undulating warble\nacross the yard.\n\nThe pain disappeared\nlong enough\nto notice,\n\nto mention,\n\nand of course\nthat spun up demons\njust to say it.\n\nWallowing\nin self-loathing,\nfear,\n\nNorth Georgia,\nBlue Ridge fever.\n\nHe wondering if it needs mowed,\njust now spring,\n\nthe grass\nwakes up slow.\n\nBreathe.\n\nCome on, body.\n\nYou got this.\n\nI just heal slow.",
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    "name": "Nathan Davis",
    "designation": "Archive Operator",
    "role": "Archive Operator",
    "handle": "@nathandavis",
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    "bio": "Designer, builder, and curator of the Codex Archive."
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      "name": "Nathan Davis",
      "designation": "Archive Operator",
      "role": "Archive Operator",
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      "bio": "Designer, builder, and curator of the Codex Archive."
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  "date_published": "2026-04-06T14:06:06.133Z",
  "date_modified": "2026-04-06T14:06:06.133Z",
  "status": "published",
  "visibility": "public",
  "language": "en-US",
  "axes": {
    "scale": "meso",
    "depth": "recursive",
    "focus": "witness",
    "function": "therapeutic"
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  "tags": [],
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