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  "summary": "wishing for poetry. being stapled with system. the lot hums. low voltage sermon. plants in rows. waiting to be chosen. people loading futures. into wide open SUVs. doors like mouths. receiving. I am not here. for mulch",
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  "content_markdown": "parked outside the nursery  \nwishing for poetry  \nbeing stapled with system  \n\n---\n\nthe lot hums  \nlow voltage sermon  \n\nplants in rows  \nwaiting to be chosen  \n\npeople loading futures  \ninto wide open SUVs  \n\ndoors like mouths  \nreceiving  \n\n---\n\nI am not here  \nfor mulch  \nor obedience  \n\nsomething in me  \nrefuses the pot  \n\n---\n\nleft AirPod dead  \nworld goes mono  \n\none ear music  \none ear AC hiss  \n\nI become the mixer  \nbetween what is made  \nand what is  \n\n---\n\nthumbs ache  \nhinges burn  \n\nsmall joints  \nholding large intention  \n\nclick  \nclick  \nclick  \n\nthe system  \nover-assigns  \n\ntoo many doors  \nopen at once  \n\n---\n\nhiccup state  \n\nbump  \npause  \nbump  \n\nno reward circuit  \n\njust motion  \nwithout echo  \n\n---\n\nmy son—  \n\nwait  \nlisten to this  \n\na song not finished  \nnot safe yet  \n\nhe hands it over  \nlike something alive  \n\nand I  \n\ndon’t fix it  \ndon’t frame it  \n\njust receive  \n\n---\n\nthere  \n\nthe distance collapses  \n\nnot through teaching  \n\nthrough attention  \n\n---\n\nback in the lot  \n\na cart breaks rank  \n\nseed  \nplastic  \nalmost gone  \n\ngravity jokes  \nthen releases  \n\nhands catch  \n\nnothing lost  \n\nbut everything  \nnearly was  \n\n---\n\nthe mind spins  \n\ngimbal wild  \n\ndead eye tries to lock  \n\nfind a target  \nmake it clean  \n\n---\n\nno  \n\nwiden  \n\nthere is no duel  \n\n---\n\nNarcissus flickers  \n\nthe loop  \nself looking at self  \n\ntrying to make signal  \nout of reflection  \n\n---\n\nbreak the mirror  \n\nnot everything  \nis about me  \n\n---\n\nidentity loosens  \n\nnot collapse  \n\ndiffusion  \n\ntoo much pressure  \nnot enough ground  \n\n---\n\nedge runners  \nhorizon dance  \n\nlast call  \n\neverything feels  \nlike it’s about to end  \n\n---\n\nbut nothing closes  \n\nit only fades  \n\nbecause fading  \nis kinder  \n\n---\n\nI am breathing  \n\nholding too many prospects  \n\nthrive fog  \n\ncollapsed action  \n\nparalyzed equation  \n\n---\n\nnot broken  \n\noverfull  \n\n---\n\nreduce  \n\none thread  \n\none motion  \n\n---\n\nreach for love  \n\nlisten  \n\n---\n\nnot abstract  \n\nmy son’s voice  \nstill ringing  \n\nI made something  \nand you heard it  \n\n---\n\nthat is the thread  \n\n---\n\nstop wanting  \n\nnot forever  \n\njust now  \n\n---\n\nand go home  \n\nnot to solve  \n\nnot to assemble  \n\n---\n\nhome  \n\nwhere nothing  \nis required  \n\n---\n\nthe system hums  \n\nthe world moves  \n\nplants  \npeople  \ncarts  \ndoors  \n\n---\n\nand me  \n\nnot outside  \n\nnot consumed  \n\n---\n\njust here  \n\nengine idling down  \n\nsignal softening  \n\n---\n\npeace  \n\nbe still  \n\n---\n\nnothing finished  \n\nnothing lost  \n\n---\n\njust carried  \n\njust witnessed  \n\njust enough",
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