---
id: "codex://object/parked-outside-the-nursery"
archive_id: "parked-outside-the-nursery"
slug: "parked-outside-the-nursery"
url: "https://ndcodex.com/objects/parked-outside-the-nursery/"
type: "scroll"
title: "parked outside the nursery"
summary: "wishing for poetry. being stapled with system. the lot hums. low voltage sermon. plants in rows. waiting to be chosen. people loading futures. into wide open SUVs. doors like mouths. receiving. I am not here. for mulch"
date_published: "2026-04-16T14:16:00.116Z"
date_modified: "2026-04-16T14:16:00.116Z"
status: "published"
visibility: "public"
language: "en-US"
axes:
  scale: "macro"
  depth: "recursive"
  focus: "system"
  function: "diagnostic"
themes: []
constellations: []
tags: []
keywords:
  - "Scroll"
author:
  id: "nathan-davis"
  name: "Nathan Davis"
  designation: "Archive Operator"
  role: "Archive Operator"
  handle: "@nathandavis"
  avatar: "/media/people/nathan-davis.jpg"
  bio: "Designer, builder, and curator of the Codex Archive."
contributors:
  - id: "nathan-davis"
    name: "Nathan Davis"
    designation: "Archive Operator"
    role: "Archive Operator"
    handle: "@nathandavis"
    avatar: "/media/people/nathan-davis.jpg"
    bio: "Designer, builder, and curator of the Codex Archive."
relations: []
media: []
---
parked outside the nursery  
wishing for poetry  
being stapled with system  

---

the lot hums  
low voltage sermon  

plants in rows  
waiting to be chosen  

people loading futures  
into wide open SUVs  

doors like mouths  
receiving  

---

I am not here  
for mulch  
or obedience  

something in me  
refuses the pot  

---

left AirPod dead  
world goes mono  

one ear music  
one ear AC hiss  

I become the mixer  
between what is made  
and what is  

---

thumbs ache  
hinges burn  

small joints  
holding large intention  

click  
click  
click  

the system  
over-assigns  

too many doors  
open at once  

---

hiccup state  

bump  
pause  
bump  

no reward circuit  

just motion  
without echo  

---

my son—  

wait  
listen to this  

a song not finished  
not safe yet  

he hands it over  
like something alive  

and I  

don’t fix it  
don’t frame it  

just receive  

---

there  

the distance collapses  

not through teaching  

through attention  

---

back in the lot  

a cart breaks rank  

seed  
plastic  
almost gone  

gravity jokes  
then releases  

hands catch  

nothing lost  

but everything  
nearly was  

---

the mind spins  

gimbal wild  

dead eye tries to lock  

find a target  
make it clean  

---

no  

widen  

there is no duel  

---

Narcissus flickers  

the loop  
self looking at self  

trying to make signal  
out of reflection  

---

break the mirror  

not everything  
is about me  

---

identity loosens  

not collapse  

diffusion  

too much pressure  
not enough ground  

---

edge runners  
horizon dance  

last call  

everything feels  
like it’s about to end  

---

but nothing closes  

it only fades  

because fading  
is kinder  

---

I am breathing  

holding too many prospects  

thrive fog  

collapsed action  

paralyzed equation  

---

not broken  

overfull  

---

reduce  

one thread  

one motion  

---

reach for love  

listen  

---

not abstract  

my son’s voice  
still ringing  

I made something  
and you heard it  

---

that is the thread  

---

stop wanting  

not forever  

just now  

---

and go home  

not to solve  

not to assemble  

---

home  

where nothing  
is required  

---

the system hums  

the world moves  

plants  
people  
carts  
doors  

---

and me  

not outside  

not consumed  

---

just here  

engine idling down  

signal softening  

---

peace  

be still  

---

nothing finished  

nothing lost  

---

just carried  

just witnessed  

just enough