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  "title": "the protest of continuing",
  "summary": "a painful void. can’t tell if it’s the missing tooth. or the others. waiting their turn. the body learning absence. in real time. healing. from subtraction. there is the one that’s gone. clean absence. a precise",
  "content_text": "a painful void—\n\ncan’t tell if it’s the missing tooth\n\nor the others\n\nwaiting their turn\n\nthe body learning absence\n\nin real time\n\nhealing\n\nfrom subtraction\n\n✦\n\nthere is the one that’s gone—\n\nclean absence\n\na precise subtraction\n\na socket\n\nstill warm with memory\n\n✦\n\nand then—\n\nthe others\n\nnot gone\n\nnot safe\n\njust waiting\n\nlike names\n\non a quiet list\n\n✦\n\nthe body doesn’t know\n\nwhich pain to honor\n\nthe missing\n\nor the scheduled\n\nit holds both\n\na ghost\n\nand a forecast\n\nat the same time\n\n✦\n\nthe now-hole\n\nversus the next inevitables—\n\nthe body\n\ncaught between\n\nabsence\n\nand anticipation\n\n✦\n\none space\n\nalready surrendered\n\nedges soft,\n\nstill learning\n\nhow to be nothing\n\n✦\n\nthe others—\n\ntagged\n\nby knowing\n\nnot yet gone\n\nbut no longer innocent\n\n✦\n\ntongue returns\n\nto the vacancy\n\nchecks\n\nagain\n\nagain\n\nas if something\n\nmight still be there\n\n✦\n\nwhat was stings\n\nand what will be aches\n\nthe body\n\ncaught mid-translation\n\n✦\n\na crack—\n\nnot loud\n\nbut final\n\nthree weighted bends\n\nand then\n\nnothing\n\npressure dissolving\n\nlike it had somewhere else to be\n\n✦\n\n“that came out easy”—\n\ntoo easy\n\nlike it wanted out\n\nbefore I agreed\n\n✦\n\nthe sting—\n\nalready fading\n\na bright, brief signal\n\nthat something\n\nhas been done\n\n✦\n\nthe ache—\n\nnot here yet\n\njust gathering\n\nlow\n\npatient\n\ninevitable\n\n✦\n\nsting says: it happened\n\nache says:\n\nit’s still happening\n\n✦\n\nthe water stone\n\nagainst my left jawline—\n\ncool argument\n\npressed to a warm refusal\n\n✦\n\nI hold it there\n\nlike a translator\n\nhoping\n\nthis\n\nand the pain\n\ncan find\n\na shared language\n\n✦\n\nice says: slow down\n\npain says: remember\n\n✦\n\nthe stone melts\n\ntime passing\n\nthrough my hand\n\nthrough my face\n\n✦\n\nand still—\n\ntumultuous, raging seas\n\nthe body\n\nturned ocean\n\ncurrents crossing\n\nwithout permission\n\n✦\n\neach pulse\n\nanother wave\n\neach throb\n\na crest\n\nlifting\n\nthen dropping\n\n✦\n\nthe jaw—\n\na coastline\n\ntaking impact\n\nagain\n\nagain\n\n✦\n\nthe weather system\n\nof an entire world—\n\npressure mapped\n\nacross unseen terrain\n\nheat rising\n\nfrom places I can’t name\n\n✦\n\nice against skin\n\nlike trying\n\nto cool\n\na planet\n\n✦\n\nforecast:\n\nlingering\n\nindefinite\n\n✦\n\nand somewhere—\n\na question\n\nis what will be\n\ninevitable\n\nwhere did it go wrong\n\nand why\n\ndoes sound\n\nnot see\n\n✦\n\nit arrives\n\nwithout edges\n\nfills the room\n\nbut never\n\nnames the shape\n\n✦\n\nso I sit\n\ninside signal\n\ninside pressure\n\ninside a body\n\nthat knows\n\nbefore it understands\n\n✦\n\never been\n\non the losing end\n\nof a never ending battle—\n\nnot defeated\n\njust\n\noutlasted\n\n✦\n\nno clean loss\n\nno clear win\n\njust accumulation\n\n✦\n\nand still—\n\nI don’t wanna go\n\njust yet\n\n✦\n\na few more necks\n\nto hug\n\nhands\n\nto hold\n\nand storms\n\nto survive\n\n✦\n\nnot finished\n\nwith the warmth\n\nnot finished\n\nwith the weight\n\nof another life\n\nleaning back\n\n✦\n\nso I stay\n\nmouth sore\n\njaw aching\n\nsystem in motion\n\n✦\n\nthis is not victory\n\nthis is not surrender\n\n✦\n\nthis is\n\nthe protest\n\nof continuing\n\n✦\n\na low, constant yes\n\nspoken\n\nthrough absence\n\nthrough anticipation\n\nthrough sting\n\nthrough ache\n\n✦\n\nthrough the whole\n\nweather system\n\nof a living world\n\nthat has not\n\nfinished\n\nwith me\n\n✦\n\nand I have not\n\nfinished\n\nwith it",
  "content_markdown": "a painful void—\n\ncan’t tell if it’s the missing tooth  \nor the others  \nwaiting their turn  \n\nthe body learning absence  \nin real time  \n\nhealing  \nfrom subtraction  \n\n✦  \n\nthere is the one that’s gone—  \n\nclean absence  \na precise subtraction  \n\na socket  \nstill warm with memory  \n\n✦  \n\nand then—  \n\nthe others  \n\nnot gone  \nnot safe  \n\njust waiting  \nlike names  \non a quiet list  \n\n✦  \n\nthe body doesn’t know  \nwhich pain to honor  \n\nthe missing  \nor the scheduled  \n\nit holds both  \n\na ghost  \nand a forecast  \n\nat the same time  \n\n✦  \n\nthe now-hole  \nversus the next inevitables—  \n\nthe body  \ncaught between  \nabsence  \nand anticipation  \n\n✦  \n\none space  \nalready surrendered  \n\nedges soft,  \nstill learning  \nhow to be nothing  \n\n✦  \n\nthe others—  \n\ntagged  \nby knowing  \n\nnot yet gone  \nbut no longer innocent  \n\n✦  \n\ntongue returns  \nto the vacancy  \n\nchecks  \n\nagain  \nagain  \n\nas if something  \nmight still be there  \n\n✦  \n\nwhat was stings  \nand what will be aches  \n\nthe body  \ncaught mid-translation  \n\n✦  \n\na crack—  \n\nnot loud  \nbut final  \n\nthree weighted bends  \n\nand then  \n\nnothing  \n\npressure dissolving  \nlike it had somewhere else to be  \n\n✦  \n\n“that came out easy”—  \n\ntoo easy  \n\nlike it wanted out  \nbefore I agreed  \n\n✦  \n\nthe sting—  \n\nalready fading  \n\na bright, brief signal  \nthat something  \nhas been done  \n\n✦  \n\nthe ache—  \n\nnot here yet  \n\njust gathering  \n\nlow  \npatient  \ninevitable  \n\n✦  \n\nsting says: it happened  \n\nache says:  \nit’s still happening  \n\n✦  \n\nthe water stone  \nagainst my left jawline—  \n\ncool argument  \npressed to a warm refusal  \n\n✦  \n\nI hold it there  \nlike a translator  \n\nhoping  \n\nthis  \nand the pain  \n\ncan find  \na shared language  \n\n✦  \n\nice says: slow down  \n\npain says: remember  \n\n✦  \n\nthe stone melts  \n\ntime passing  \nthrough my hand  \nthrough my face  \n\n✦  \n\nand still—  \n\ntumultuous, raging seas  \n\nthe body  \nturned ocean  \n\ncurrents crossing  \nwithout permission  \n\n✦  \n\neach pulse  \nanother wave  \n\neach throb  \na crest  \n\nlifting  \nthen dropping  \n\n✦  \n\nthe jaw—  \n\na coastline  \ntaking impact  \n\nagain  \nagain  \n\n✦  \n\nthe weather system  \nof an entire world—  \n\npressure mapped  \nacross unseen terrain  \n\nheat rising  \nfrom places I can’t name  \n\n✦  \n\nice against skin  \n\nlike trying  \nto cool  \n\na planet  \n\n✦  \n\nforecast:  \n\nlingering  \n\nindefinite  \n\n✦  \n\nand somewhere—  \n\na question  \n\nis what will be  \ninevitable  \n\nwhere did it go wrong  \n\nand why  \n\ndoes sound  \nnot see  \n\n✦  \n\nit arrives  \nwithout edges  \n\nfills the room  \n\nbut never  \nnames the shape  \n\n✦  \n\nso I sit  \n\ninside signal  \n\ninside pressure  \n\ninside a body  \nthat knows  \nbefore it understands  \n\n✦  \n\never been  \non the losing end  \nof a never ending battle—  \n\nnot defeated  \n\njust  \noutlasted  \n\n✦  \n\nno clean loss  \n\nno clear win  \n\njust accumulation  \n\n✦  \n\nand still—  \n\nI don’t wanna go  \njust yet  \n\n✦  \n\na few more necks  \nto hug  \n\nhands  \nto hold  \n\nand storms  \nto survive  \n\n✦  \n\nnot finished  \nwith the warmth  \n\nnot finished  \nwith the weight  \nof another life  \nleaning back  \n\n✦  \n\nso I stay  \n\nmouth sore  \njaw aching  \nsystem in motion  \n\n✦  \n\nthis is not victory  \n\nthis is not surrender  \n\n✦  \n\nthis is  \n\nthe protest  \nof continuing  \n\n✦  \n\na low, constant yes  \n\nspoken  \n\nthrough absence  \nthrough anticipation  \nthrough sting  \nthrough ache  \n\n✦  \n\nthrough the whole  \nweather system  \nof a living world  \n\nthat has not  \nfinished  \n\nwith me  \n\n✦  \n\nand I have not  \nfinished  \n\nwith it",
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