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title: "Yippiekiyay"
summary: "Morning began. with anxious bird-static. At least six species. talking over one another. inside the hedgework. like overloaded operators. trying to push continuity. through damaged frequencies. Tiny declarations. of"
date_published: "2026-05-15T15:52:19.187Z"
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# ✦ IN THE REPUBLIC OF HEDGES ✦

Morning began
with anxious bird-static.

At least six species
talking over one another
inside the hedgework
like overloaded operators
trying to push continuity
through damaged frequencies.

Tiny declarations
of hunger,
territory,
weather,
survival.

No conductor.

No consensus.

Just life itself
interrupting life itself.

I sat in the Georgia sun
trying to forget the world.

Trying to thin the layers enough
to hear wind moving
between them.

My girls were in New York City.

Steel-river organism.
Subway lungs.
Crosswalk percussion beneath mirrored towers.
Steam ghosts rising from grates
while millions of strangers
moved through vertical momentum corridors
toward work,
desire,
exhaustion,
continuation.

And me:

blue ridge suburbia.

On my ass in a lawn chair
beside a chemically wounded juniper,
watching a cardinal
nested low near the fence line.

Quiet this morning.

Not silent.

Restrained.

Like the whole neighborhood
was recovering
from too much signal.

The beagle stood on the slab
surveying the yard
like an aging detective
revisiting an unsolved case.

One paw slightly lifted.

Receiving invisible transmissions
through the grass.

Squirrel bureaucracy.
Rabbit residue.
The emotional weather
of a household.

The edge of the juniper
had been murdered by chemicals.

Brown cauterized branches
where overspray drifted too far.

Suburbia:
always conducting
small tidy wars
against variance.

The weeds eliminated.
The hedges disciplined.
The ecosystem negotiated slowly
into decorative compliance.

And still the cardinal returned.

Still life insisted.

Then the baby reds woke up.

Tiny furnace-hearts
opening their mouths
against the impossible scale
of the world.

Sasha immediately destabilized
the entire operation.

Tail conducting atmospheric turbulence.
Eyes locked upward
like she’d intercepted
classified avian intelligence.

The parent cardinal
broadcasting outrage
from the fence line.

The yard vibrating now
with overlapping nervous systems:

birds,
dog,
wind,
sirens,
memory,
heat.

Then Alice in Chains entered the field.

We Die Young.

The cassette ghost returning.

Sixteen years old again
driving foothill roads
through west Montana.

Windows down.
Pine-shadow.
Copper light across dry hills.
Gas fumes and cassette plastic
warming beneath dashboard heat.

The tape deck swallowing magnetic ribbon
with that soft mechanical hunger.

Layne Staley’s voice arriving
like industrial grief
translated into weather.

At sixteen,
the songs sounded dangerous.

Like prophecy.

Like somebody finally admitting
the machinery itself
was making people strange.

Now decades later,
the records sound different.

Not rebellion anymore.

Survival.

Damaged cathedrals
still somehow standing
after the fire moved through.

Man in the Box
opened old trapdoors
inside the nervous system.

Parking lots.
Skate shoes.
Chain-link fences shimmering in heat.
The early awareness
that America itself
was exhausted beneath the paint.

Back then,
I couldn’t name it.

The guitars named it for me.

Sun on my belly.
Sun on my back.

Rotisserie-style meditation
beneath Georgia heat.

Trying to turn the volume down
inside the skull.

Because consciousness now resembles
a crowded emergency food court
inside the empire’s final shopping mall.

Too many tabs open.

Wars.
Autocrats.
Collapsed republics.
Children under rubble.
Algorithms harvesting outrage
for quarterly growth projections.

Then:

distant sirens.

Blue-red flashes
flickering between rooftops
and decorative stone mailboxes.

Police frequencies
moving through the subdivision
like electronic weather.

Another synthetic chirp
from the squad car.

Almost bird-like.

The republic answering itself
through competing signal systems.

Cardinals in the hedge.
Police tones on asphalt.
Garage doors opening.
Air conditioners humming
like exhausted spacecraft.

The body reacting automatically.

Shoulders tightening.
Breath shortening.
Ancient mammalian alarm software
still operating beneath Wi-Fi,
mortgages,
and lawn fertilizer.

I breathed anyway.

Tried to let the lungs
perform their old ceremony
without attaching civilization to it.

Forget the wars briefly.

Forget the autocrats.

Forget the endless planetary theater
of greed,
violence,
manufactured certainty,
and exhausted commentary.

Not permanently.

Just enough
to survive the afternoon.

The body does not understand geopolitics.

It understands:
heat,
oxygen,
shade,
water,
rest.

That is not ignorance.

That is foundation.

The birds resumed.
The beagle shifted position.
The baby reds demanded breakfast
like tiny malfunctioning trumpets.

And for one impossible moment:

the layers stopped competing.

Nothing solved.

Nothing healed.

Just enough reduction
in psychic turbulence
to hear the blood moving again.

Then finally:

one ridiculous human bark
toward the dog.

A ceremonial exchange
between two exhausted mammals
attempting diplomacy across species barriers.

The beagle offended.

The yard startled.

A squirrel witnessing the incident
from the fence line
like a horrified bureaucrat.

And afterward:

retreat indoors.

Withdraw from the signal field.

Close the sliding glass door
against the sirens,
the birds,
the republic,
the unbearable continuity
of the century.

Enter the cool dim cave
of conditioned air.

The house humming softly
around the edges.

Outside,
history continued
its vast grinding machinery.

Commerce.
Collapse.
Migration.
Empire.
Weather.
Desire.

Inside:

shadow.
Breath.
Fading music.

Sea of Sorrow
low through the speakers now,
like a radio station
barely surviving
at the edge of the mountains.

And underneath all of it:

the attitude remained.

Not optimism.

Not denial.

Something older.

The crooked grin
inside impossible conditions.

The barefoot-through-broken-glass energy.

Yippiekiyay.

Ancient cowboy exorcism phrase.

Improvised anti-despair technology
for operators trapped
inside overheated civilizations.

Keep the helm.

Stay the course.

Do not surrender
the strange inner spark
to the dead-eyed machinery.

Because later:

the son gets dropped off.

Another small orbit completed
inside the sprawling infrastructure
of parenthood,
roads,
timelines,
and continuation.

Starbucks in hand now.

Paper cup warm against the palm
like a temporary treaty
with existence.

Drive-thru incense:
espresso,
burnt sugar,
industrial cream systems,
and the faint perfume
of exhausted commuters
attempting resurrection.

The parking lot glowing softly.

SUVs idling.
Brake lights blinking.
Tiny private tragedies
passing each other
without context.

Somebody heading to a meeting.
Somebody returning from chemo.
Somebody trying not to cry
before noon.

And me:

holding coffee
like a sacred operational artifact
after a morning already full of
birds,
sirens,
Alice in Chains,
yard theology,
and suburban psychic weather.

Then back through the loop.

Returning home again
along familiar suburban arteries.

Traffic lights cycling
through their ancient liturgy:

wait.
prepare.
proceed.

The curve by the retention pond.
The church sign updating its optimism.
The gas station
with two pumps always broken.
The mailbox cluster
leaning slightly toward entropy.

Repetition builds strange holiness.

Drop-off.
Coffee.
Loop home.

A tiny orbit
inside the larger spinning machinery.

But halfway back:

I stop.

Parking lot monastery.

Engine ticking softly beneath the hood.

And suddenly the loop changes shape
because attention entered it.

Does it matter
that I haven’t made it home yet?

Maybe not literally.

The driveway remains patient.
The beagle continues his perimeter theology.
The cardinal republic persists
without requiring my immediate supervision.

But stopping to write matters.

Most people blast straight
through their lives
like overloaded trucks
missing every roadside sign
except catastrophe.

So I sit there instead,
coffee cooling in the holder,
thinking about Montana,
Alice in Chains,
baby cardinals,
and the possibility
that consciousness itself
is just layered weather
moving through mammals.

Absurd.

Holy.

Closer to truth
than most mission statements.

Then the deeper realization arrives:

unmoored.

Amnesiac.

I forget myself every morning
and twice before midday.

Wake up reassembled incorrectly.

Consciousness arriving
like loose paperwork
spilled across the floor
of a moving vehicle.

Name.
Role.
History.
Obligations.

All requiring
slow manual reattachment
before the machinery
of the day will operate.

Coffee helps.

Music helps sometimes.

Birds in the hedge.
Sunlight across the dashboard.
The geometry of familiar objects.

Tiny continuity anchors
hammered into the riverbed
to keep the self
from floating completely away.

Because identity
is less permanent structure
than recurring maintenance ritual.

A repeated remembering.

You wake
and the world hands you
the costume again:

father.
husband.
operator.
driver.
citizen.
man carrying invisible weather.

Some mornings
the armor fits naturally.

Other mornings
it hangs from the body
like borrowed equipment
still cold from storage.

So eventually:

time to head home.

Coffee nearly gone.
Ice thinning in the cup.
The nervous system
a few percentages softer.

Not healed.

Just stabilized enough
to resume motion.

And maybe that’s the real miracle.

Not transcendence.

Not clarity descending
from heaven like a perfectly organized PDF.

Just enough stabilization
to keep carrying the helm.

The world always requests
your flattening.

Your compliance.
Your surrender to numbness.

But the cardinal still flashes red
through damaged hedges.

The beagle still patrols the slab.

The baby birds still open their mouths
against overwhelming scale.

And somewhere deep beneath the static:

a sixteen-year-old kid
still drives through Montana foothills
with Alice in Chains
rattling the speakers,
believing there might still be
some wild unfinished thing
worth carrying forward
through the noise.

Yippiekiyay.

Stay the course.